but i cant work out why this happened hpw did i create a bad life for them

how did it come to this?

It wasnt meant to be like this, when I met Julie it was love at first sight ,she was everything I'd ever wanted - sure maybe her bum was a bit big and she had a bit of a rash (down there)and she was a bit taller than me - but to me she was beautiful. The world was our oyster, terra firma was doin' well - I'd picked up a few jobs and I had this great bloke Steve Frost workin for me - was under paying him really when I think back - but fuck, you know,I was saving my bucks ,we were livin' at Terry and Judes rent free - bludgin really I suppose, but we didn't see it like that - we were saving our money so we could start a family........................